I hate fighting

Especially when it's not even really fighting. It's more like "I feel bad for making you feel bad."

Since I don't feel like I can just leave it there, I think some back story is necessary;
So the other night I went out with a couple of my girlfriends to a bar. One friend wasn't drinking at all, one holds her alcohol insanely well and then my last friend and I maybe had a bit too much. But it was okay, we had people watching over us and we were watching out for each other and all that. Next day: hungover, not feeling well at all, my monthly friend came to visit (TMI BUT I DONT CARE KTHXBAI) and so I was not having a good day.

So I started to text you and such and you were...unimpressed. We talked on skype and you remained unimpressed. We texted some more and (you guessed it) more unimpressed, which is fine. I was drunk, you weren't there, you didn't know what was going on.

But I feel like because you weren't there you aren't trusting me. Which I don't get. I try to be very trusting of you, whatever you wanna go out and do I try to be supportive and such. But when I go out with my girls and not you and have one too many, you get all stressed and freak out.

What exactly do you think I was planning on doing at that club?

I just don't get it.

After this post I'm really not sure if I should ever show you this blog...